Babe

Eigth grade:
You joked around
Called me your ‘babe’.
We were just kids then,
We were just kids.

Tenth grade:
I wanted to be your babe.
You laughed in my face
And stopped talking to me.
Even though I grew up,
You’re still a kid now,
You’re still a kid.

(SONG: Adore – Cashmere Cat)

Disguise

You called yourself ‘love’

As you entered my life.

Like a rock,

But you broke my bones

Crushed my soul.

Like a fresh breeze,

But you whipped past in a jiffy

Caused chaos in my order.

Like a guiding light,

But you led me the wrong way

Ran out and left me in darkness.

Like a helping hand,

But you helped me break myself

Helped me become helpless.

The truth is,

You were like nothing

I thought you were.

And now,

I’m nothing of what

I used to be.


(I’m going to try and start recommending songs to listen to while reading these poems. Click on the song to listen to it on YouTube!

Song for ‘Disguise': Brave – Jhene Aiko)

Conversations

“Hi there.”
“Hello.”
The first words
We spoke to one another.
The incipient uttering,
The fragile first step
Of something so beautiful
It couldn’t have survived.
Something too pure
For the real world.
Something so special
It was out of my reach.

“You make me happy.”
“But you ARE my happiness.”
The human heart
Always yearns for something
It can’t have.
I yearned for you.
You slowly gave in to me
I gave in to you.
We jumped, head first, hands held
Into the blazing pit.
It felt so good
To just let someone
Steal your soul.
We smiled
But feared the inevitable.
At that moment
We were infinite.

“I love you.”
“I love you, too.”
Too late now
To turn around
To go back
I wish I’d never met you at all
But you had my heart
Every last bit of what was left
And I let you keep yours.
Tainting your perfection
Never crossed my head.

“What about the last 4 years?”
“That was nothing, I was just messing around.”
Lies, lies, more lies.
You are a shameless criminal
All your words? Made up.
All your gestures? Fake.
All your smiles? Forced.
Is she lucky?
Or is she just another me
To you?
(I’d hope not.)

“I still love you.”
“I’m late, have to meet her soon.”
I couldn’t breathe without you, love.
You are the oxygen in my lungs.
You are the blood that flows through my veins.
Your poison was slowly etching
It’s way through my skin.
I couldn’t let go
Didn’t know where to begin.
How could you not need me?
Because I do.
How can you live without me?
Because I can’t.

“Hi there.”
“Hello.”
The one I’d once call my strength
Was now a stranger.
Passing petty pleasantries
While we walk past
As if we have a purpose without the other.
I can’t bear to see your face
The only thing that
Would light up mine.
I can’t look into your blue eyes
The only pair that
Would make mine shine.
I had promised to love you forever
And I will, even if I don’t wish to.
You broke me
But I can’t break you.
You never loved me
But I still love you.